On May 21^st of this year Moses and I are finally getting married! Its not the way we planned but it is still happening! I am going to Uganda all by myself to marry the love of my life. I leave very soon. I had a couple of emotional breakdowns, but overall, I am feeling a sense of peace. This is what I have prepared for, us being married. Turns out, not so much.

I am a girl you can count on to have and be prepared for anything. I have a mom purse; everything is in there. Sewing kit, band aids, I mean everything. I feel safe and secure when I have something I might need. What ifs run through my head constantly. I like to have a plan or at least have an idea. I like to prepare. I need to be prepared.

I have prepared for a lot of things, but it turns out, you cannot plan for everything. I have prayed and sought counsel to be married. Read books, listened to podcasts, but what can fully prepare yourself for this big life decision? Nothing. You just do it. I have planned and dreamed for this day and its coming, but I found myself not prepared. There was no point on having a pity party for myself. I just prayed for wisdom and clarity. God gently whispered “You need to trust for the unknown. Trust in my timing not your preparation.” Those words hit me like a ton of bricks. DUH! Why do I depend so much on my knowledge and preparation? Trust the God of all wisdom and perfect timing.

For years I prayed to be ready. I have prayed for God’s timing. I asked that Moses and I would be married in His timing. That is what he is doing. Now what? Enjoy it. Enjoy the answer to prayer. God answers prayer. I wanted this prayer answered five years ago. But He is in control, not me. So, with my recent convictions I want to challenge you. What have you been asking God for? Are you ready for that prayer to be answered? Why or why not? Who are you trusting?