Every time I come here, I apologize for not writing enough. I’m tired of that. Am I sorry? Yes. But will I change? I don’t know. That’s an honest answer. I just needed to take this time and say what needs to be said.  This blog is designed to be for relationship support and updates with my long-distance marriage. There is one relationship I need to highlight.

Recently, I have experienced tragic loss. My brother Andrew has passed. For decades he had been an alcoholic, his health declined quickly. His liver and kidneys just shut down and there was nothing the Drs could do. I was preparing myself for some years that I would outlive my older brother if he didn’t seek help. It didn’t make this easier. My heart is broken, my family is shattered. Yes, we need your prayers. These are dark times. However, in these dark times, I have seen hope and light.

  My light is my friends. You. The check-ins, meals, texts, etc. I am so blessed to have amazing friends. You have stuck by me when times are not easy. When I can’t be a good friend back you guys are there. Thank you. You have given me space to grieve and grow. You make me feel better when I feel so lost. I still need you and I don’t think I will ever stop needing you in this life.

Someone once said, “True friends are great riches.”  To that I agree. In this time, I am reminded of a Christmas classic film It’s a Wonderful Life. George Bailey stressed, lost, life feeling unfulfilled. Lost his job facing serious turmoil. Realizes he’s the richest man in town because of friends. His friends and so many others came to help George. My heart needs to know I am rich in friends. I have people to come to my rescue.

I feel as if these words of gratitude are not enough for you but right now that is all I can give. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I love and appreciate you. You know who you are.

-Mar